I Am Not Afraid

We sat on the wooden floor of Om Lan's home as she told us about how no one dared to build a house on the land where she built because of the evil spirits that live there. In Cambodia they believe very much in the spirit world and are very afraid of evil spirits. However, Om (Auntie) was not afraid because she knows the power that she has in Jesus Christ over the evil one. I was so humbled and encouraged by her faith. There have been no attacks of the enemy since she has lived there and she is being a shining light to those around that Christ overcomes the power of darkness. She also told us about how when her neighbors need rice, she brings them rice, or if they need to borrow her ox cart, she lets them borrow—for free. When I told her that she is living her life like Jesus would, she said, “Of course, that is what he told us to do!” I was again so humbled by the faith and actions of Cambodian believers. I think I am coming to encourage them, but they, instead, challenge and encourage me. Mutual encouragement…that is how the body of Christ is supposed to function!

I continue to be full of conflicting thoughts and emotions…encouraged by the incredible believers we meet, and discouraged by the fact that there are so, so, so many that still have never heard of Jesus Christ. It’s not like they are rejecting him, they have never had the opportunity to hear about him. I feel hopeless, lost, despair, and confused about what it means to bring life to this dying world—not American life, but the life of Jesus. And then I get to spend time in worship and am full of hope, encouragement, and a sense of purpose. My eyes are opened to see the kingdom of God here in this country and in these people’s lives. One minute I feel completely at home here and like I could live here and share Jesus with these people forever, and the next minute all I can think about is my down comforter, a hamburger, and sitting around the table playing games with my family. I am constantly learning to die to self and to live for him. And I am continually learning that we were not created for this life, but for the kingdom of God and for an eternal relationship with him.

Again we were able to share with a family who had never heard of Christianity or of Jesus Christ about who he is, why he came to earth, why we need him, and how very much he loves us! After we shared for a while we asked them what they were thinking and the woman said, “I feel very warm and happy. I like what you are telling me.” I am very excited because we will be going back to this same village for part of our final outreach. I continue to invite you to make this your journey—not just here in Cambodia, but in everyday of your life—asking how you can share Jesus, be Jesus, see with Jesus’ eyes, and be bringing the kingdom of God to your world. After all, that is what it is all about!